Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha

First thing first, I would like to wish everyone an awesome Eidul Adha! We as Muslims should be grateful to have a celebration that reminds us the importance of sacrifices each year of our lives.

Being far away from my family during a festive season like this isn't something easy to do. Especially when you have an exam coming a day right after that. It somehow makes this special day ordinary - just like every other Mondays I had before. I don't deny how high my desire to be with my family right now, to cook with them, to have a Raya meal with them and to visit my father's grave back home in Malaysia. Plus, I really miss my brothers' "takbir" and to be able to answer to it together with my family.

But I won't be able to do so. It's hard and I don't deny it but to disappoint my family if my studies failed is even harder. Therefore, these are my sacrifices for them and for myself just like the sacrifices of times and energy my family made to get me where I am today.

Those cows and sheep and lambs and goats and camels have made their incredible sacrifices for like ever... don't you think it's time we make some too?

Subway (Chapter 1)

SHIT!

I cursed as I spilled my coffee on my resume. “Shit, shit, shit!” I cursed silently more and more as the brown stain seemed more eager to stay on the paper the more I tried to wipe it off.

Nice one Syd. Now everyone’s looking at you and there’s no way you can land this job anymore.

I tried to act as calm as possible but it’s pointless because I have at least a dozen pair of eyes looking at me flailing my resume in the air trying to dry it off. “It’s okay! I’m okay everyone.” I sort of shrieked at everybody in the room trying to calm them down, or rather calm myself down.

I can’t ruin this interview because it’s been my dream to work as a chocolatier since I ate Choco Almond Fudgity Fudge by Andersen’s Confectionary. I’ve dedicated my life since then studying how to make chocolates and candies in order to create a taste that can have the same impact as the fudge to me. I know I’m sounding a little loopy here but the truth is I’ve always been obsessed with candies and chocolates because to me these are the only food that can help you forget your sorrow and relieve your anger.

I’ve always applied for jobs at any chocolate or candy shops available but always ended up fired or didn’t get the job at all because of my clumsiness and honesty. I was always scolded by the chefs for correcting their methods or for dropping a perfectly chilled mousse on the floor that caused me not only my salary for that month but also my salaries from the month before. And once I tried to add extra vanilla sticks to a restaurant’s cake in order to enhance the flavor but I was caught in the act and fired soon after that. To my surprise, about a week later, that restaurant launched a new cake that became the talk of the town until now for its newly enhanced flavor.

Therefore, I’ve prepared so much for this interview because I knew this is my last hope to fulfill my dream. Plus, this is how I can finally help my mother with our expenses and not just be the girl who chases an invisible dream anymore. But now I have coffee spilled all over my resume and… wait a minute… I don’t remember my Topshop shirt being brown…

SHIT!

I spilled the coffee on my crisp ironed white shirt too. That’s it. I’m doomed. There’s no way I can land a job with a brown resume and a half brown patented white shirt (Hey, it actually sounded pretty good if you put it that way).

Don’t give up yet Miss Sydney Daniels. You’ve come all the way here just to back off?

Wow… I can’t believe that’s my conscience talking.

Hello! Conscience… what’s your name?

Wait. What am I doing? Why am I suddenly talking to myself? Okay. You’re right. I can’t give up now. Not after all the troubles I went through in order to land this opportunity.

“Miss Daniels”

That’s the secretary calling my name.

Oh God… what am I doing? Oh my God…

“Miss Sydney Daniels?”

“Yes. That’s me.”

Damn! You actually answered her out loud?

I limped my way to the interview room with my brown resume clutched firmly in my hands and just before I entered the room, the secretary asked for my chocolate samples. Luckily she reminded me so I immediately went back to my seat to get them but they were gone. I looked around trying to find who could have stolen my chocolates.

Could it be that girl wearing glasses?

She looked at me weirdly from the moment I entered the room.

Was it that old fat man reading the papers?

Okay there’s no way I can tell who was it. There were too many suspects. I guess it’s time for me to activate my CSI mode…

Think out of the box. Think Sydney think.

“Miss Daniels? I’m waiting.”

“Sorry. Just a moment please.”

Oh my goodness. Now I remembered. I brought the chocolates to the pantry in order to arrange them neatly. Then I got thirsty and go for the coffee instead. But the cup was too hot so I dropped it.

I turned around slowly and looked at the pantry area and my worst nightmare came to life. On top of the pantry was a box of what used to be my chocolates but now were swimming in a pool of coffee and were no longer in shapes. Before I knew it, my feet moved on its own and I started to run. I ran as fast as I could and before I knew it, I was already at the subway station.

Give it up Syd. This was just not meant for you.

I walked weakly down the stairs towards the ticket counter as I whispered to myself.

This is over Sydney.

To be continued...

Getting in touch with my creative side

Drawings have always fascinated me. I really love anything that's artistic and creative but the only problem is I've always wanted to draw something nice but failed miserably. I'm pretty good with crafts and graphics but I don't seem to posses much talent in drawing.

But just recently, I was browsing through Google images for my favorite animes and came across a drawing style called chibi. Chibi is a Japanese word for child and chibi drawing method simply means drawing cartoons that looks cute and childish. I really like the method and after so long, I started to draw again.

It really surprises me how easy it was to draw these chibis. You don't have to be perfect, just draw something cute and it's a real fun! So here are a few snaps of my drawings... be warned... it might hurt your eyes.

This is my first attempt...


And the second one (one of my favorite)


Another attempt - my favorite


Trying to draw a different body posture - didn't have time to put all the shadings though


And my most recent work

New block... new challenge

Just started my new block of digestive system yesterday and damn the module is thick! But to be honest it's one of my favorite body system. I really love the physiology of it... how the food is processed inside our body and how the enzymes work totally fascinates me...

The only side back to this is the anatomy of the system. Imagine having to learn the anatomy of our stomach, intestine, colon and even anus and memorizing every single inch of it... oh my goodness... I don't even want to think about it...

But overall, it's gonna be another exciting and challenging block for me and I can't wait to see what's in store up ahead.... Hopefully this block will run smoothly and I'll passed it with flying colors!

Medic - the Best or the Worst?

When I first went for my scholarship interview in 2006 for a degree in medicine, I'd already expected the must asked question for medic applicants - why do you want to be a doctor?
Most people would simply answer because I want to help others but is this true? Because doctor isn't the only job in the world where you can help others, engineers can help build better machines, architects can build better buildings and even bakers can bake better cakes. So why would people want to take up this horrifying course (found out later after only one semester) and spend their lifetime on others and sacrificing their own?

I can't really say that we medic students take up this course for the bankroll because to be honest the salary is totally not worth it. I mean after five to six years of extensive studies (to the point where we ourselves might need a brain surgery), we'll have the lowest salary among our friends who graduated one to two years earlier than us. Plus if you look at the Forbes' list of the richest men in the world, you can only find about a couple of doctors who are in their 90's sitting at the bottom of the list. I don't deny the payment is pretty satisfying once you are a specialist, but in order to get there you have to spend another three to five years of your life studying while others are enjoying their life with their well paid job.

And I doubt the reason why we took up this course is because we love to study. Because let's face it, no matter how nerdy a person might be, you don't want to have books as tall as you are to memorize and having the thoughts that if you missed a single line in those books, you might caused a man's life. Although we learn a lot about health, we medic students are the most ignorant about our own health. We are very prone to gastric, insomnia, appendix, food poisoning and even psychiatry problems due to our studies.

Let's go back to the first reason about helping others. I know that it's noble to want to help others but would you really choose to help others when your own life needs help in fixing it. Of all the professions in the world doctors are one that's very likely to have a marriage crisis. And we medic students don't get to have fun often unless you consider going to classes and group discussion as fun.

So, after listing out so many cons in the life of a medic student, why did we still took up this course? Each one of us has their very own opinion (which might include the reasons I listed above) but my answer is pretty simple. It's because I was inspired. I was inspired by my family, my friends and even the society to take up this course and make it my future career. I guess when you are inspired, you'll have the passion to continue a life that others might not even want to cross and start to look at things differently and enjoy every bit of it.